Time to close the chapter on another year, it went by quite quickly. So many clichés come to mind. Clichés may be trite, but they sometimes speak volumes of truth, time really does fly.
This past year seemed to soar by particularly quickly, I’m not entirely certain if that is a positive or a negative. It was a decent enough year, nothing too terribly terrible to report.
I didn’t make any huge life changes, it wasn’t an easy year, but it wasn’t the hardest I’ve had. If I seem apathetic I suppose it’s because I am in a small way. I didn’t realize that until just now. I don’t mean to sound ungrateful because I am so much more than thankful for every single moment I was blessed with over the past 365 days.
It would sound incredibly selfish if I were to say I wish it had been different. Well, here I am, sounding selfish. I do wish it had been different. I wish certain things had happened and I wish others had not. I wish I could have spent more time feeling well and less time just trying to get through each day.
I wish I could have helped my children strengthen their wings enough to fly. I wish I would have written more letters, called more old friends, and let myself become lost in more moments of wonder. I wish the world was a better place.
At least I didn’t break any of last years resolutions, mostly because I didn’t make any. I never do. That old saying, the road to hell is paved with good intentions, may be a bit on the dramatic side, but it’s pretty spot on. I know I’m not heading to hell, but I also know resolutions are nothing more than really good intentions which ultimately litter the roadside of whatever path we are traveling.
While I may sound like someone in need of a good therapy session, I assure you, I’m good. I know just how beautiful my life is, after all, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Another great cliché right? I am alive. My family is well, my children are continuing to learn and grow and find their place in this world. My beautiful daughter began a new life as a new wife. I hear my mother’s voice on the phone every day. My husband brings me coffee each morning and the sun never fails to rise.
God is good and I know whatever this new year brings, He will provide me with the grace I need to face whatever comes my way.