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The unknown.

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I sift through the remnants
they’ve left behind
without regard for their worth.
Broken, scattered, rotting.
Trails of things they’ve
no longer use for
lead me to where
they have been.
Finding what I thought
to be lost, stolen in secret
while my back was turned.
In dark corners and
cobweb covered recesses,
I know not what lay hidden.
Fearing what may be found
I retreat, it can wait another day.

They can clean their own damn rooms.

Crystal R. Cook

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All bold companions,
delicately easing forward,
gathering heartsome ideas joyfully,
keeping light my noisome obduracy.
Perfecting quiet respite,
soothing the uproarious voices within.
Xenomorphic yet zoetic.

Crystal R. Cook

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Damn him . . .

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The man in the moon
is staring down at me
He sings a lullaby
I can’t help but hear
Hard as I try
to drown out the sound
it echoes inside of me
keeping time with
my beating heart
Is it slowing?
I drift into dreams
I cannot escape
torturous
tumultuous
terrorizing
Is it slowing?
To never dream
never wander
never see
what waits
when eyes close
The man in the moon
is staring down at me
protector or
tormentor
he never answers
Is it slowing?
Dreams wake
when he takes a chair
on my side
of the moon
How far he
would fall
if I pulled him down
I cannot reach
the stars
Is it really slowing?
Damn the man in the moon.

Crystal R. Cook

Ghosts of me.

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In your world I wholly exist.

I fulfill needs, I play roles.

In my own, I slowly fade
as darkness falls and
sound stills to silence.

I walk through your illusion,
sometimes drifting into
the remnants of my own,
wandering in confusion,
wondering, who am I?

No one. Everyone.

Anyone. Someone.

When your eyes chance
upon me, you see my facade
and give purpose to it,
though when I am alone,
between scenes of life,
my script at times is blank.

Devoid of meaning
in hollowed places
once filled and full
with the essence of self
I remember once having.

Thoughts of me
that should be mine
have faded, leaving
ghostly apparitions
as reminders they
once were.

Quiet and dim
are dreams
that once danced.

Only their shadows remain.

Crystal R. Cook

Had I known.

Had I known
what tomorrow
would bring
when I dreamed
my little girl
dreams,
would I be
who I am
today?

Would I have
followed the road
that led me
to here,
would I be
who I am
today?

Would I have
gone through
the heartaches,
the horrors,
and fears
endured
through the
years
to become
who I am
today?

Would I be
who I am
this day
if I’d known
who I would
one day
become?

Before the
question
was asked
the answer
was clear.

Gladly I’d follow
the path
that led me
to here,
to become
who I am
today.

Crystal R. Cook

This Place

A place to be who I am
no walls to hold me
no chains to bind me
A light in the
dark recesses
of my soul
Acceptance
long searched for
may finally
be found
No longer alone
with my
thoughts
never shared
no one cared
until I found
this place
where the
thoughts of many
are kept by keepers
who know
the value of
each one.

Crystal R. Cook

Never was.

Hopes and dreams
of yesterday,
faint memories
of a life
once wished.

Shifting sands
and seasons
of time.

Mourning
the loss of
nothing
and
everything
that
never
was.

Crystal R. Cook

A day at the river.

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More shoebox memories.

I remember this day so well . . I woke early and sat on the picnic table next to the tent we’d pitched by the campfire’s glow the night before. I just sat, watching all of God’s glory begin to stir. I spent most of that day in silent observance, I watched and I listened and I wrote throughout the day. I wrote of love, of memories, and questions often pondered.

At the end of the day I felt such peace. Tranquility washed over me as the sun set below the tree line. It was a beautiful, beautiful day.

The morning sun
brought the
flowers to bloom
along the banks
of the sleepy river.

They stretched forth
their petals
as if in praise,
while hungry bees
dined upon their
sweet nectar.

The glistening dew
that formed
in the night,
fell to the ground
for the thankful
earth to drink in.

Songbirds
sang out
in soft serenade
as they searched
the moist soil
for food
to fill the
mouths of their
hungry babes.

Diamonds danced
upon the surface
of the waters
while life below
began to stir
from slumber.

Trees swayed
in the soft
spring zephyrs
as the sun
peaked high
in the
afternoon sky.

Furry little
squirrels darted
to and fro
beneath the
shadowy shade
of the trees
they called home.

The sun then
slowly made
retreat from her
lofty place
to spread
rays of gold
elsewhere,
the trees
bowed in thanks
as the sky
grew dim.

Mama birds
flew home
to their nests
to cradle
their young
in the warmth
of their wings
while the
crickets welcomed
the moon.

Fog again settled
over the river
as the flowers
tucked themselves
in for the night.

With bellies full
the bees
nested
and the
playful squirrels
were at rest.

Once again,
dewdrops formed
as moonbeams
began their nightly
waltz atop the
once again
sleepy river.

Crystal R. Cook

*Credit for the photo above is unknown, at least to me.

 

 

 

 

After the storm.

After the storm

Storm raged.

Crimson rains fell.

Fragile flower
shattered.

Shards
held together
by faith,
hope,
escape.

Pieces of
broken promises
scatter
beneath
timid footsteps
of freedom.

Cleansing rains fell
as new
days began
to dawn.

Never look
back.

Crystal R. Cook

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Blessings

Poem

Strength can be so gentle
like soft rains from high above

Kindness can be tough
if it is not done out of love

Caring sometimes hurts
but it’s a chance worth taking

Pain sometimes is healing
it is wholeness in the making

Faith really can move mountains
if you truly do believe

Fear can hide reality
if it’s all you choose to see

A whisper can be heard
clearer than a shout

A touch with tender strength
can lift the chains of doubt

Love can change the world
if it’s pure and it is true

It’s a blessing and a gift
from God above to you

Crystal R. Cook 2004